As many of you know, I became engaged to the most amazing man, the one that God created just for me in August of this year. We had planned on a wedding in June of next year… started making plans that aligned with what would “work best” with our individual situations.
I’m a school counselor and have summers off. He works at a factory that normally has a “shut down” in the summer as well. With such “perfection” in regard to timing, it was not a difficult decision to pick a date in June to pledge our love in front of God, our families, and our friends.
We began praying more consistently and earnestly than we ever had over our relationship and upcoming marriage. We made a considerable effort to pray over every decision, big and small. I remember specifically beginning to pray that God would direct every aspect of our wedding including the date that we should have it, where we should have it, and many other details like where we should live, etc (I live in the South, and he lives in the North–so someone’s gotta move HAHA!)
Exactly three days after praying that prayer, my fiancé called me and said that his factory was making new inventory beginning in 2019 and that he was no longer guaranteed time off. So, we were faced with a decision. We could have the wedding this December when he would have guaranteed time off in December and January, or we could wait until December of 2019 or the summer of 2020 with no guarantee that he would actually have time off. After much prayer, we decided that getting married this winter was what God intended for us….
and we also decided that I would be the one to move.
If you have read my blog posts thus far, you will know that I’m not a person that enjoys taking risks… or leaving a job that I love… or moving away from family.
I don’t enjoy change. It’s uncomfortable.
But do you know what I enjoy more?
Following the will of God.
Even when His will challenges me. Because His plans are shaping me into the person that He has designed for me to be.
But just because I want to follow the will of God doesn’t mean that I’m not scared to death to do so.
It doesn’t mean that I’m not concerned with finding a job, with the financial decisions that go along with that, with leaving behind the students that I’ve poured into this year, with so many more aspects of life.
I met up with my fiancé recently at his sister’s house in North Carolina. We spent time with her, made new friends, ate delicious food, and rode scooters around the city. But my favorite part of the whole weekend was attending Elevation Church – Uptown campus.
The pastor spoke about Joshua 3, and how sometimes, we want to “camp in comfort.”
I was convicted before the message even started. But then the pastor began to list out his sermon points and began to preach his message, and the conviction that I felt only grew. I would like to share with you what I learned from God through the pastor’s message.
First, we all have choices.
We are not robots or zombies. We have free will. We have to live on purpose. The pastor asked this question, “Are you allowing how uncomfortable you are to hold you back from saying ‘yes’ to God?”
I was saying “yes” to God on the outside with the decisions that I listed above by turning in my letter of resignation and planning a winter wedding, but I knew in my heart that I hadn’t let them go to God. I was holding on to them, stressing over them, trying to take them into my own hands. In many ways, I was saying “no” to God.
Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.
1 Peter 5:7
I was saying, “No, God, I believe I’ll keep my anxiety today. Thanks, though.”
Second, fear keeps us camping.
The pastor said that mentally camping does not allow your roots to grow deep. In my case, God is telling me to uproot and re-plant somewhere else. If I decide to mentally and spiritually camp, His will cannot come to fruition in my life because I am not allowing the roots of His love and His provision and His comfort to grow deep in my life, as I am uprooting my physical roots to move from one part of the United States to the other.
Third, doing God’s will requires consecration.
Consecration just means setting ourselves apart. As Christians, we must consecrate ourselves daily, especially mentally. Because I can say from experience, attacks are coming when you decide to live for God. When I did some soul searching, I realized that I had not been mentally consecrating myself and therefore allowing negative and toxic thoughts to camp in my mind.
Lastly, we must cross.
If God has called us to do something, we must be obedient. He loves His children so very much. He has wonderful and awesome plans for us, and they are plans that will bring us joy and not harm.
The LORD your God is with you, the Mighty Warrior who saves. He will take great delight in you; in his love he will no longer rebuke you, but will rejoice over you with singing.”
He takes great delight in His children, and He rejoices over us.
Trust Him, Macey.
Trust Him, friends.
Let’s do what the Israelites did in Joshua 3:17,
The priests who carried the ark of the covenant of the Lord stopped in the middle of the Jordan and stood on dry ground, while all Israel passed by until the whole nation had completed the crossing on dry ground.
Let’s follow the presence of God, wherever He may lead. For me, it’s moving across the country and starting a new life with my soon-to-be-husband. For you, it may be something entirely different. But whatever He is asking you to do, I encourage you to say “yes” to Him and “no” to your fears, your insecurities, and your desire to be comfortable.